Yahoo is my emotional outlet. My propose is not to slander any one. I'm only speaking of truth which could be just my side of reality. I really cannot see form others' point of views when I was deeply emotioally invloved with someone. I never say I'm perfect. We all made mistakes. I was never a good life partener and a good mother. The only thing I knew was to love the person who I thought was my soulmate, my love of my life. I took a chance and I failed.