Recently I ve join several dating/community site,
don t know if it s only cause by sudden loneliness at this foreign country;
or it s because I ve recently become the only single girl among my friends;
or may be it s simply because I ve been single for a bit too long...
I am under some sorted of mood swings,
one moment, I want a man so bad, i even dream about it;
at another moment, I rather enjoy being a single girl who s free, no limit what so ever...
maybe i no longer know how to be in a relationship,
where i need to care about this "other person",
yet as a woman, i was born to be loved and cherished...
i seek for love, naturally.
sigh, I don t know...
I really don t know, and I have no one to share this thought with...
everyone has been fooled by my independent image,
that no one ever thought that I am only a twenty-ish girl,
who also need someone to depend on, some shoulder to rely on...
I love a quote ever since i ve heard it, or maybe i kinda just invent this phrase,
"I want a man who I could called my own"
a man who s for me only. how sweet.
and i know for sure, i am ready to be someone s woman.
go on and listen to Natasha Bedingfeild s Soulmate, if you are as single as me now,
who seek this person, who know how to love you with out being told.
love, S. |