Looking back, I now realize that the years she was struggling to raise her child were the hardest of all.

It's painful to see her living a bare existence on the small income she gets from her part-time jobs. 

She has a hard time paying all her bills on her small salary. 

It was hard on me not being able to see her any more, but if I had not met her, my life would have been a lot harder. 

It is a very painful decision for me.