2009-03-30

今天的台北很冷　讓我想起那隔著重重山海的城市

忘不掉總在三月底或四月初來臨的暴風雪
漫天的白茫茫　快速的積成厚厚的雪堆
剛成型的雪堆　鬆軟棉細　腳一踏就會陷個動彈不得
我總冒著重感冒的危險　衝進大雪中　只為了踩出一個個深深的腳印
越陷越深　深到走不動時　我會索性往雪上一躺　
讓冷冽的寒氣透過雪衣　傳到溫暖的皮膚上　冷到打哆嗦才肯起身

今天的台北很冷　我不時望向空中
幻想著　天上會不會突然飄下細白的雪花？

在那城市裡　我是自由的　
不隸屬於誰　我只屬於自己
遠離家園　沒有親人的過度關心
遠離朋友　不需要敞開心房　身旁只有半生不熟的人生過客
遠離感情　曾有的傷心疲憊終得休憩
遠離一切　只面對自己
遠離自己　我　像空氣一樣稀薄　隨時都能消逝飄散　

今天的台北很冷　淡淡的感傷如影隨形
我擺脫不掉自己　更遑論想擺脫掉其它令我不安煩燥的這些那些
我想念著那城市裡的大雪　幻想著台北的天空也會突然白雪紛飛
然後　我又能躺在雪堆中　
直到所有的知覺漸漸麻痺
直到所有的煩憂慢慢凍僵
直到所有的傷痛退出記憶
直到　你只愛我

台北　如果　下雪




Disguise

Have you ever felt some kind of emptiness inside
你是否曾感到生命的空虛？
You will never measure up, to those people
你不可能做到讓每一個人都滿意
You must be strong, can't show them that you're weak
請堅強起來　絕不能示弱

Have you ever told someone something that's far from the truth
你是否曾說出不得已的謊言？
Let them know that you're okay
假裝自己一切都安好
Just to make them stop all the wondering, and questions they may have
只為了止住旁人對你的猜測與疑問？

I'm okay, I really am now
我很好　真的很好
Just needed some time, to figure things out
只是需要多些時間　在混亂中理出點頭緒
Not telling lies, I'll be honest with you
知我如你　讓我無法對你說謊
Still we don't know what's yet to come
但我們對未知的將來　懷有相同的惶恐

Have you ever seen your face in a mirror 
你是否曾仔細端詳在鏡子裡的自己？
There's a smile, but inside you're just a mess
看來笑臉盈盈　其實心中一團亂　
You feel far from good
你感到低落不安
Need to hide, 'cos they'd never understand
將真實的自我隱藏起來　因為沒有人了解你

Have you ever had this wish, of being somewhere else
你是否曾夢想著　能逃離現實　身處它方
To let go of your disguise, all your worries too
拋開所有偽裝與一切憂煩
And from that moment, then you see things clear
在瞬間　一切都變得清晰明瞭　你終能不再困惑

I'm okay, I really am now
我很好　真的很好
Just needed some time, to figure things out
只是需要多些時間　在混亂中理出點頭緒
Not telling lies, I'll be honest with you
知我如你　讓我無法對你說謊
Still we don't know what's yet to come
但我們對未知的將來　懷有相同的惶恐

Are you waiting for the day when your pain will disappear
你是否在等待著所有痛苦都消散無蹤的那天？
When you know that it's not true what they say about you
當他們對你的誤解　終被澄清證明的那一刻
You could not careless about the things surrounding you 
你無法不去在意你周圍的人事物
Ignoring all the voices from the walls 
更無法忽視縈迴不去的悠悠眾口

I'm okay, I really am now
我很好　真的很好
Just needed some time, to figure things out
只是需要多些時間　在混亂中理出點頭緒
Not telling lies, I'll be honest with you
知我如你　讓我無法對你說謊
Still we don't know what's yet to come
但我們對未知的將來　懷有相同的惶恐

I'm okay, I really am now
我很好　真的很好
Just needed some time, to figure things out
只是需要多些時間　在混亂中理出點頭緒
Not telling lies, I'll be honest with you
知我如你　讓我無法對你說謊
Still we don't know what's yet to come
但我們對未知的將來　懷有相同的惶恐

Still we don't know what's yet to come
我們對那未知的將來　只能感到惶恐不安