I'm trying to give up on you, yet, friends are tempting me constantly... Maybe I have myself to blame, but you are really a hell of a guy. I'm actually confused as hell as well... Should I continue to like you or should I just give up as early as now, so I won't get hurt as badly in the near future? In fact, I don't even know what kind of attitude I should have when I'm facing you. This is trouble. A gigantic trouble for me, because I don't know how to react when I'm around you. Jeremy and the rest of the gang believe that I should act mature and confident, which I thought I was, obviously not. They all believe I'm like a little girl who still has tons to learn. I guess so. I'm not a good mind-player... Probably that 's the problem, I hope.
Right at this moment, when I'm just about to give up on you, there's another temptation to keep you again... You know what? I'm just going to lay low, go with the flow, and relax, see how things go this week... If it went well, then, I guess I'll get to keep you as the one I like... if not, then FORGET YOU!! I need to move on as a playa myself... ya know what i'm sayin'?
*take a deep breath*
Pheww!
I'm done... Finally letting it out is good!! I'm glad!!