It was nice to talk to you both yesterday...
I'd been running away from "you know what" for years... I forgot how I used to love you both and the others......
Winnie, I'm so happy for you... Congratulations!!! I have no doubt that you will be an excellent mom!
Winson, I hope you know that I'm here for you and I know so are the others!!! Please hang in there as you are having so much on your shulders..... Please be strong and please do take care of yourself. We can not bear to lose another one of us... One life is already too many!
都過了這麼多年了 而且這兩三年來自己也終於走到認知跟他是不可能再有什麼牽扯了
我問了個自以為能承受答案的問題...
聽到的結果雖在預料之中 我卻被接下來像是午後雷陣雨 說來就來 想躲也躲不了的眼淚及心痛嚇到不知所措
原來...... 接受了不可能再繼續的事實 不等於 聽到自己不是他孩子的媽時可以坦然並由衷的說出
"I'm so happy for you! I really do!"
豪無能力阻擋的眼淚就這樣寢盆下了一整夜...
自己都嚇了一大跳
很害怕又跌回到那個永不見天日的谷底 真的害怕!
好不容易可以往上爬了一段 我怎也不想再回到那黑漆漆的低潮裡
我該怎麼辦才好?
我多希望自己可以不帶任何一點心酸大方的說出"願你們開心 幸福!"
我厭惡這樣不大方的自己! 極厭惡!
下下策
三更半夜 我的身體早累癱但我的眼淚還在high
不行! 我絕不能再掉下去!
只是以防萬一!!!
萬一我一個人做不到 撐不了
要我一天照三餐吞那可悲的暫時性孟婆丸我也甘願照吞!
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利用網路就這樣不遲疑的掛了號
"Dr. Lee~~~ Long time no see...... Guess what? I'm back! See you on Wednesday then!"
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