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作者: 乖乖≠惹人愛 日期: 2008.04.20　　天氣: 　心情:

                                                                      
                                你                                    
                        總是在我要放棄時候                            
                               出現                                   
                              幾天前                                  
                           接到你的電話                               
                             你解釋著                                 
                            你還未回國                                
                             等你回來                                
                      一定要把護照上的出入境                          
                              給我看                                  
                         好證明自己的清白                             
                           只是聽到的我                               
                             早已麻木                                 
                           因為對我而言                              
                       你只是個熟悉的陌生人                           
                               罷了                                   
                          我以朋友的心情                              
                           聽你訴說一切                               
                           竟然你想解釋                               
                        我就順便問了些問題                            
                               聽說                                   
                      你常和陌生女子去看電影                          
                           於是你告訴我                               
                           那都只是男人                               
                     在朋友面前死要面子的謊言                         
                             為了澄清                                 
                     你拼命的叫我抄下你的帳密                         
                         請我去看你的信箱                             
                             你告訴我                                 
                             我還記得                                 
                      之前跟我提過的前女友嗎                          
                            我當然記得                                
                           那個在你房裡                               
                          玻璃瓶裡的女孩                              
                       她一直是我心裡的疙瘩                           
                            因為我知道                                
                             你放不下                                 
                         但我卻都告訴自己                             
                           那都是過去了                               
                               你說                                   
                            你無法放下                                
                        所以一直與她有通信                            
                         更不會與別的女生                             
                            有任何交集                                
                              還記得                                  
                          第一次對你告白                              
                               我說                                   
                             我喜歡你                                 
                           但每次到房裡                               
                         看著玻璃瓶的女孩                             
                              總感覺                                  
                            是否你心裡                                
                          還有放不下的人                              
                         雖然你沒有回應我                             
                             但我記得                                 
                              那天後                                  
                           玻璃瓶的女孩                               
                              消失了                                  
                            上面出現的                                
                            是你的獨照                                
                               當下                                   
                           我感到很欣慰                               
                           因為我的感受                               
                             你顧到了                                 
                             但幾次後                                 
                              我發現                                  
                       她只是放在第二張罷了                           
                          但你有那個心了                              
                         因為你願意去遮掩                             
                            不讓我看見                                
                               當然                                   
                             現在的我                                 
                         也對你說了這件事                             
                               你說                                   
                         你知道我早己發現                             
                              你覺得                                  
                          什麼也沒說的我                              
                             真的很好                                 
                             就因這樣                                 
                          你也感到很欣慰                              
                        你催促著我抄下帳密                            
                            於是我上樓                                
                            走進了房裡                                
                             拿起紙筆                                 
                             抄了下來                                 
                              然後我                                  
                            轉移了話題                                
                          與你閒聊了一下                              
                            就掛上電話                                
                                但                                    
                           我並沒有去看                               
                         一直到凌晨三點多                             
                              我終究                                 
                            還是忍不住                                
                              上線了                                  
                               發現                                   
                            今年一月時                                
                          你寫給她的信裡                              
                           還是告訴著她                               
                            你喜歡著她                                
                            雖然她現在                                
                         身邊早有了另一半                             
                               而她                                   
                        也會寄最近的生活照                            
                               給你                                   
                              照片裡                                  
                      也包括了你曾送她的狗狗                          
                       你們分享著生活與近況                           
                               當然                                   
                          我也順便去看了                              
                        你奇摩交友裡的日記                            
                               至今                                   
                         我印象最深的一篇                             
                                是                                    
                         知道妳在長榮上班                             
                          所以我每次出差                              
                          總是訂那的飛機                              
                           然後在飛機上                               
                              徘徊著                                  
                          假裝找不著坐位                              
                            看是否可以                                
                             與妳相遇                                 
                              這一秒                                  
                             我下線了                                 
                        於是把寫上帳密的紙                            
                               丟了                                   
                         我傳了封短訊給你                             
                          內容我依稀記得                              
                         還是忍不住去看了                             
                        但寫帳密的紙我丟了                            
                      因為那畢竟那是你的隱私                          
                     我也順便看了你交友的日記                         
                                但                                    
                            我不該看的                                
                       因為這樣我才不會發現                           
                          她對你多麼重要                              
                         而你又是多麼愛她                             
                       我真的不知道該說什麼                           
                               抱歉                                   
                                                                     
                            下一秒的我                                
                            還是忍不住                                
                               哭了                                   
                              心好痛                                  
                               果然                                  
                            還是忘不掉                                
                         自己是喜歡著他的                             
                            這一夜的我                                
                              好沒用                                  
                                但                                    
                          因為在上一天班                              
                            我就休假了                                
                          所以我必需忍耐                              
                            直到下班後                                
                             回到了家                                 
                             從酒櫃裡                                 
                           我拿了一瓶酒                               
                              在房裡                                  
                          我一杯接著一杯                              
                             從沒停過                                 
                           幾杯黃湯下肚                               
                            眼淚就這麼                                
                             不爭氣的                                 
                             開始落下                                 
                       於是我開始打起了短訊                           
                              我記得                                  
                              內容是                                  
                        從我們第二次的見面                            
                        我就把心掛在你那了                            
                         即使有人向我告白                             
                          即使有人尋問我                              
                            我總是回答                                
                          我有喜歡的人了                              
                          雖然你總是逃避                              
                        但我卻也從沒放棄過                            
                           昨晚的我哭了                               
                              我在想                                  
                       與你開始有交集的時候                           
                     而你的心卻總是在別的地方                         
                             我開始想                                 
                          當你抱我的時候                              
                            心在那一刻                                
                             是我的嗎                                 
                             而我是誰                                 
                             我算什麼                                 
                              對不起                                  
                      我只是想跟你說心裡的話                          
                     希望沒增加或造成你的困擾                         
                          每個人都有過去                              
                         我不會去計較什麼                             
                             我在乎的                                 
                          只有現在與未來                              
                                但                                    
                             現在的我                                 
                           又擁有了什麼                               
                             知道你忙                                 
                           我也總乖乖的                               
                             一直相信                                 
                         只要自己堅持下去                             
                           總有那麼一天                               
                             會有答案                                 
                            我告訴自己                                
                          不能去苛求什麼                              
                               因為                                   
                         並竟我什麼都輸了                             
                             輸給了你                                 
                             輸給了她                                 
                              輸給了                                  
                              我自己                                 
                                                                      
                              沒多久                                  
                             你打來了                                 
                             你一開口                                 
                          就一直告訴著我                              
                              我沒輸                                  
                          聽到這句話的我                              
                               哭了                                   
                            而你告訴我                                
                           她只是個謹惕                              
                            只是個過去                                
                         但我還是無法忍住                             
                              我的淚                                  
                               你說                                   
                             聽到我哭                                 
                            你心都亂了                                
                            只求我別哭                                
                           我哭泣著問你                               
                              我是誰                                  
                             對你而言                                 
                            我到底是誰                                
                            當你回答我                                
                            男女朋友時                                
                          我卻失去了感覺                              
                          這是我長久以來                              
                         一直最想要的答案                             
                         我卻停止不了哭泣                             
                           也沒把這句話                               
                             放在心上                                 
                         正在交際應酬的你                             
                         因為客戶要離開了                             
                        於是你匆忙的告訴我                            
                          明天一早打給我                              
                               好嗎                                   
                             知道你忙                                 
                          我依舊還是那個                              
                         讓你感到欣慰的人                             
                               所以                                   
                             我回答好                                 
                                                                     
                         還是止不住淚的我                             
                            打了通電話                                
                         給我最要好的朋友                             
                               因為                                   
                              只有她                                  
                          才是我的止淚劑                              
                            結束了通話                                
                             淚也停了                                 
                                                                      
                               喝醉                                   
                           真的比較好睡                               
                             你知道嗎                                 
                                                                     
                             早上的我                                 
                       並沒接到任何一通電話                           
                      但我卻一點也不感到難過                          
                               因為                                   
                             那晚的淚                                 
                           只是一種渲洩                               
                             一種解脫                                 
                            從掛上電話                                
                        至今已經過了三天了                            
                               所以                                   
                             那你覺得                                 
                        我有必要把你說的話                            
                            放在心上嗎                                
                        就像我告訴朋友一樣                            
                       我還是不會去苛求什麼                           
                       因為畢竟人如果認真了                           
                     一但覺得有了什麼關係存在                         
                         一定會去苛求什麼                             
                          會希望你常陪我                              
                            要求你什麼                                
                            渴望你什麼                                
                         然後我只會越來越                             
                            討厭我自己                               
                              不是嗎                                  
                            因為我知道                                
                             現在的你                                 
                           什麼也給不起                               
                           ............                               
                                                                      
                              給不起                                  
                                                                      
                           ............                               
                                                                     
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時間：2008-05-20 20:25
他, 48歲,桃園市,其他
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作者回覆說[2008-05-20 21:48]：

希望你幸福~~

 
時間：2008-04-25 01:20
他, 25歲,南海諸島,其他
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作者回覆說[2008-04-29 01:10]：

所以~~~

就寬心~~~放手~~讓彼此飛~~~

幸福~~總有一天~~~會讓心停留~~

 
時間：2008-04-21 00:26
他, 40歲,台北市,學生
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作者回覆說[2008-04-29 01:07]：

這是故事吶@@"

 
時間：2008-04-20 20:17
他, 43歲,非洲,其他
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作者回覆說[2008-04-29 01:05]：

適時的放手~會活滴更快樂~~

因為~~從這一秒開始~~做自己~~~

痛~~~總是在快遺忘~~什麼是愛時~~出現~~

 
時間：2008-04-20 10:58
他, 38歲,桃園市,學生
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作者回覆說[2008-04-29 01:03]：

每一個人

總有不同的經歷~~

當然不可能雷同~~

要否~~~

世上怎會有那麼多~~~

愛情故事的存在~~



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