yesterday was a cool day, i mean, summer is going to end and i am still "together" with my "girl-friend". this relationship was a pain in the ass for me. i had to watch over her every step and every move to make sure she is doing the right things or making the right move. i get frustrated sometime like yesterday. yesterday she went out with her friends to ... somewhere in Taipei, just shopping~!
man i wish i could be there with her but the thing is we are ocean apart, so there is nothing i can do about it. shes a nice girl but just too stupid to think for herself. i am tired of thinking for her. my mind should put in to something that is more important and more self-helping stuff.
i went to the chatting room yesterday and this girl from our group told me "maybe you are over protecting her." yeah maybe... maybe i am over protecting her, maybe she is not dumb as i think she is. so from now on i will let her chat with guys and when guys left messeges for her i wont be like "omg who the fuck is that, what the fuck did he said?" and i will let her to go out with guys because, hey, she will get board for the next 4 month i know it.
if everything works out fine then around DCE, i will go back to taiwan and be with her. but if she did something wrong then this shit is over. i hate myself being lost in love i need to do something to protecting myself. over loving her has gave me a headach. think for myself. i need to be awake.