it's a long long Journey, till i know where i m Supposed to be.
it's a long long Journey, n i dont know If i can Believe.

when shdows fall, n block my eyes,
i m lost n know that i must Hide..

it's a long long journey...till i find my home to u.

many days i've spent, drifting on through empty shores.
Wondering What's my Purpose,
Wondering how to make me Strong,

I know i will Falter, I know i will Cry,
i know u will b standing by my side...

it's a long long journey... 

and i need to b closer, to u.

sometimes it feels no one understands, I dont even know Why i do the things i Do,
when pride builds me up till i Cant c my Soul,

would u break down these walls n pull me through...?

cause it's a Long long journey,
till i feel that i m Worth the price.
u paid for me on calvary, Beneath those stormy skies.

when Satan mocks n Friends turn to foes,
it feels like Everything is Out to make Lose Control....

cause it's a long long Journey....

till i find my way home to u......

 

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i love this song since a few years ago...
but it sounds so diffi...
when i m not "alone" now.....

it feels more lonely...than b4.

i didnt post the lyric, i key in every single word myself n mark some words which mean something to me...

there r so many things....tight on...this journey...

sometimes..i think i get the answer of this long way..
but, it should not be the answer..
as i assumed..

too many things, i try my best to handle n communicate n help n get through...

but i m still here n nowhere to go...
no words to be heard...


it's.. a long long journey...

and i have it all in my heart solitary..



i still remember the 1st time i heard this song...
i can c the core, the msg Corrinne May want to deliever...

as a power for me to keep forward...
and also to comfort me...


every night...i look back into what happened in these past 6 months..
or even longer...

I cant even get another hug for myself...
and it becomes more desire of having a cuddle....

deeply.. n deeply....

as losing the possibility.



finally, i realize that.. it's about my weakness.
it's me who can not fix those breaks n turn them into perfect status..

I m Not ABLE.

will never b able.



and i dont want the pain remains after every single call u made.

U r my illusion.




somehow i have to wake up...and face it..........i think....
it's my long long journey...
and i Cant find my way home to U.


there is no home...
there is no u....

who know me, c through me, and firmly protect me and hold me.


who believe in what he has to do and do it.

for me. for us. for he always knew....

for each piece of msg i delievered in this........long long...journey....


for his belief.




 it's a .. long long journey......






u never leave me alone, but isolated.

maybe it's just bcuz i finally know, 

Always, Solitary, Me.


Like it's never changed.


when i back to read the first chapter of my story...

in this end.. i got my title.