Feeling frustrated and tired.
I don t know what to think.
Your dad invest some fund for you to start your thing...
Which is very very very good.
And I am so very glad for you.
It s a good opportunity that you can better your life of,
although you are very fine now.
But I am confused...
cuz, you didn t left any message for me...
not any message, just for me...
NOT ANY...
Feeling... upset...
not that you will be busy... but that...
somehow... I don t exist...
somehow... I am just the same as others to you
well, that is what I feel...
But, I don t feel like I am important to you
I don t feel it...
I don t feel it...
I know this project will make you put all your heart and soul into it...
and I doubt if there is any space left for me... in your heart
just a little little space... like... something at least you care of?
I don t know what to say to you...
everything I send recently went into deep water...
Some ppl say to just wait until you feel guilty to hurt me...
but... will you ever know that you are hurting me...
by just leave me there...
maybe you think that I am getting independent...
maybe I am...
but... just at least hope that somehow you are concern about me...
how am I doing and so on... but... somehow it is nonsense to you, isn t it.
My mind is so confused... yet I shouldn t be... right?
Cuz we know that you are not fooling around...
we know that you are working hard as you can...
sigh... need to talk myself out of this mind mess of mine again
I miss you a lot...
and this waiting seems never stopping...
perhaps, me going back to Taiwan now is a good thing...
so I will decided if I will keep on waiting for you...
If you are totally into your future, and I am not in your plan, why should I wait... right?
But I will wait... at least for now... until I was proven wrong.
I love you. I miss you. I am upset.
You may want whatever you aim in the future, and I believe that they are good plans.
I trust you.
Though those are good, but you don t really need them to get my heart...
(if that is your partial goal? I don t know)
I only need you to pay me a little more attention, just like before...
I only want to know that you will be there when I am tired...
I only want to know that you miss me as how I miss you...
What I really wants is... feeling that you are part of my life.
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