It s been a long time since the both of us chatted over MSN.
HE - my buddy, who rejected me on my last birthday and is currently attached.
I used to contact him very often. We hanged out frequently too, but all those were before he was attached to another girl.
After I knew that he s attached, I kept a distance from him. Firstly, I did not want to stick to him like I used to be, to avoid any misunderstandings from his girlfriend. Secondly, I ve decided to let go of him. It took me 3 years to really make up my mind to confess to him after all my worries & concerns. Confession needs a lot of courage, especially for a girl to confess to a guy. It wasn t easy for me, though I m the spontaneous kind of person. I m afraid to lose him as a friend, as well as my companion.
I had mixed feelings when chatting with him the night before. I feel that, he was showing much more concern and care towards me than before. I don t really like that feeling, it made me feel like I m just a reserve. Why did he want to do it that way? Is he afraid of losing me as a friend - someone who would give him so much attention like before?
I don t understand. Why didn t he cherish me when I m always by his sides the last time? Now that I m moving on with my life, then he started to shower me with all his concerns... One thing I m sure of myself, I won t fall for him for the second time...